today...

i am feeling very grateful for and quite content with my life. it's not that i haven't been happy with my life before today but this past week has really brought some things into perspective for me. i shared some very tender moments this week with a girl who has been a part of my life since we were in joy school. her mother is now in the heavens watching over us down here - she is our guardian angel! helping my beautiful friend through this hard time in her life really slapped me in the face with reality. i got to thinking about things..and i mean thinking A LOT. i have come up with these conclusions concerning life, i'm sure that other people have come up with these exact dame conclusions and that i'm not a genius for thinking about them but this past week helped them to really hit home.

1. there should not be a day that i wake up not wanting to do anything. i have a healthy, completely functioning body. yesterday i was dancing in the kitchen and in the living room and my dad said to me, "lys i haven't seen you dancing in the kitchen like that in ages." i went on dancing while i thought about what he said. i was pretty mad at myself after thinking about it for a while because i LOVE to dance, it makes me happy! i still cannot figure out why i haven't let myself dance in the kitchen more often. so today i went to rebelette practice with a very different attitude and when our coach told us we only had enough time to do the dance once more before we left i was disappointed and wished i could stay there and dance with those girls for the rest of the day!
2. embrace my life and how it is right this very moment.
3. learn to find a way to grow in every situation. my new guardian angel taught me this through her friends. there have been some things that other people have done that have left quite a mark and impression on my life. this week i have decided that i will never let those things get to me in a negative way again. after all, why should i? those experiences taught me a lot and even helped me realize who i am and what i want in life so today i am saying thank you for those experiences!
4. most importantly i have been thinking about how i want to spend every second of my life grateful for it and living it to the fullest! we never know how long life is going to be and i don't want to look back and have any regrets. i want to live so that when i am 80 years old and it hurts to get out of beds some mornings i can say to myself, "gosh Alyssa you sure danced those bones to a pulp way back when." and that i can be happy about it!

i am terribly sorry for all this word vomit but this is what i have spent my last few days thinking about and maybe, just maybe after reading this you might see some of these things could be useful in you life as well!